Happy Election Day! Or maybe judgment day. It’s hard to be sure. Either way, I voted (if not just to make the text messages and incessant phone calls stop, ya know?)
I don’t have any snazzy transitions in mind, so let’s just jump in. This year has been the most peculiar and disturbing I’ve ever seen. I was in a deep depression for much of the year, the deepest I ever experienced. I cried every day, I felt trapped in my apartment, I hated my job (and eventually quit), and I sat on the couch playing video games all the time (but like, sadly). I imagine some of you felt similarly. I did a substantial amount of soul searching, because what else is there to do during a pandemic?
In September things got weird (in a good way) when I started meditating more often, starting with opening the root chakra because someone on Twitter told me to ¯\_(ツ)_/¯. I’d decided to open myself to something hopeful for the first time in a long time and had been researching all sorts of spiritual stuff. One day as I was laying on my yoga mat, crystals in hand, I had an epiphany that accelerated my spiritual awakening like none other. My brain felt like it was exploding, so I spent some time in solitude and came out feeling refreshed and with a new outlook on life. So what’s my great epiphany, you ask? For me, it’s simple. I re-found a piece of myself that I thought I’d lost. My purpose! My spark! Turns out mine is to bring joy. That’s why I have always had so many creative endeavors that I pick up and put down (blogging, podcasting, writing songs, producing music, making playlists, Tweeting…) I can be a little good at a lot of things. Sometimes it’s more fun that way. At the end of the day, I just want to make people smile and maybe dance a little. How liberating it is to realize such a simple truth about oneself! I’m dedicating more time to these creative outlets and each day I feel a little better. It’s truly fulfilling. Hopefully I’ll be updating things here more often! Hope you’re well, let’s catch up soon.